QT: Against My Will

Bing Shi woke up from a loud noise. Stepping out of her tent, she saw two men fighting each other, “...” She looked down at her Kuro, who was baking sweet potatoes above a campfire, “...”

[Host, Ziek brought you sweet potatoes.]

[“Aw, that’s so nice of him.”]

As soon as Ziek spotted Bing Shi, he stopped playing with Yi Zen. Tossing the iceman out of the base, he flew down and sat at the fishing chair next to Bing Shi, having no idea what to say, “Morning.”

“Good morning,” Bing Shi giggled at the cute boy in a body of a thirty plus years old man, “Did you sleep well?”

Ziek took down his hoodie and showed Bing Shi his dark circles under his bloodshot eyes, “How does this look like to you?”

Bing Shi reached out her hand towards the side of his eyes, “Can I touch you?”

“Hm?” Ziek blinked his eyes in confusion, his body grew hot, “Go ahead.” Why was she asking for permission as if he was a woman? Such a mood killer. What was taking her so long? Hurry. His heart couldn’t take it any longer.

.....

Bing Shi smiled in helplessness. Reaching both of her hands towards his shoulders, she grabbed his hoodie and covered his head with it, “Don’t show your handsomeness to the world so easily,” sitting back, she thanked him for the sweet potatoes, “Take a nap. I’ll watch over you.”

Ah, a false alarm. Ziek’s face showed disappointment. The light around him dimmed, except the sound from the flickering campfire, any other noise disappeared. He didn’t want to fall asleep. He wanted to spend every second with Bing Shi.

“You’re face blind,” he said. There’s nothing handsome about him. He looked like shit.

Bing Shi nodded while shrugging her shoulders. She could see more than most people would initially think, “Be good and sleep. I’ll stop speaking to you for an hour in ten...nine... eight... seven... six... five... four....”

“If it’ll make you happy,” Ziek crossed his arms, remembering the warning from HQ, he looked down and closed his eyes.

“It will...three... two... one,” Bing Shi smiled and protected him from the upcoming attacks. But there was none. How far did Ziek throw Yi Zen away?! Her smile changed into soft giggles, resulting in Ziek’s lips curling up.

*Two hours later*

Yi Zen flashed a killing intent at the man who sat next to Bing Shi like a sovereign. Was he Bing Shi’s lost boyfriend? From the beginning, Ren Han was with them the whole time. Did it mean Ren Han lost his memories and fell in love with Bing Shi all over again? “Is that him?”

“No.”

“Maybe.”

Two voices spoke out at the same time.

Yi Zen was unwilling; it’s too sudden. Ren Han was a crazy individual. Too dangerous and unpredictable for his little sister, “Does he know how you look like?”

“I don’t,” lied Ziek, his eyes never left Bing Shi.

Yi Zen’s lips straightened into a thin line. A small spark of jealousy assaulted his heart. Why couldn’t she show herself to him? Why was Ren Han answering in her state? “You trust him more than me?”

“No. You know that it’s for your own good,” Bing Shi put the skewed potato on a plate in a calm manner, “One day, I’ll show myself to you.” The potato from her plate was thrown out of the base, “My potato!”

Ziek flew out of the base while taking Yi Zen with him. His possessive behavior began to sprout from within his soul. He felt uneasy when Bing Shi treated someone better than him. She couldn’t show her face to that man! What if Yi Zen fell in love with her?!

‘He is too fast. I can’t keep up.’

Ziek didn’t act mindlessly. He thought about all the consciences of his action, and choose the best path in a matter of seconds.

Bing Shi screwed another potato and put it over the fire, never stopping analyzing the situation. She was afraid of Ziek’s mind. The very mind she fell in love with. She wanted to share her journey with Xuan Mu through Ziek. But was it fair towards Ziek, who believed to be a different entity? She knew that no matter what, she’d be unable to love him without thinking about Xuan Mu.

It meant she had to bring Xuan Mu out of Ziek. But without Ziek’s permission, it’d be impossible. Such a dilemma. Why couldn’t she accept Xuan Mu wholly as a soul? Bing Shi found it absurd. Xuan Mu and her worked so hard for their relationship to function. And here came his doppelganger who’d gain all the benefits? She had to give her body and mind to him like she gave to Xuan Mu? Never.

All of this was one of her statements. Ziek was not a part of the world story. What if this was a part of HQ’s plans to take control of her? What if Ziek was a great actor? What if there’s no Xuan Mu inside of him? Bing Shi’s brain was about to explode; there were thousands of what-ifs.

Still, Bing Shi had to admit one thing. That boy was growing on her. During Xuan Mu’s absence, his soul was able to cheer her up. But she couldn’t respond to Ziek’s feelings, not until her overly jealous Xuan Mu accepted Ziek as a part of him.

‘My Mr. Jelly, will you accept him as a part of you?’

‘If not, I’ll forever be yours.’

‘What were you thinking?’

‘Giving me so much freedom?’

‘For my happiness?’

‘It’s doing the opposite.’

‘It’s making me love you more.’

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After a few months...

The base took the incident between Ziek and Bing Shi as Bing Shi throwing a tantrum over Fu Qin’s case. She shut herself inside her tent and worked on her drafts. Nobody could interrupt her.

While Ren Han... Ren Han was Ren Han. No one understood him. It seemed like he couldn’t move on from miss Fu Lian. A few times a month, Ren Han would visit the base to flirt with Fu Lian. Yi Zen as a man, had to protect his woman, resulting in a fight between those two monsters. Sometimes it would be Ren Han’s loss; sometimes, it would be Yi Zen who would be beaten until he became a bloody mess.

The most perplexed one was Yi Zen. Ren Han confused him so much that he didn’t know what to think anymore. He felt irritated. What’s Ren Han’s purpose?! Without giving him any respect, Ren Han flirted with his pregnant woman as he wished! It gave him a lousy reputation of a general who couldn’t force one man to stay away from his woman!